I'm sure one of the first thing that most people do when they start a blog is to give their friends and family the link so they can follow along.

not me

It's not that there aren't plenty of people out there who don't know that my life is far from vanilla.  It would be easy to start a blog, invite my swirl friends and talk about my interest in rope and fetish in general.

But that isn't the case here.
1) because i don't mind blogging to myself.  It's more important to get the words out, than it is for anyone to read them
2) because about this time last year my non vanilla life came to a fork in the road.  I was really ready to take a vanilla path.

I still don't know who the audience is for this blog, so I will spare everyone the gory details.  But I will say this, that decision not to take the vanilla path has lead me to an unexpected less vanilla path than the one I was on.  As fun as this path is, it's exciting in a way that riding a roller coaster blindfolded is.

On a roller coaster, you know there are certain rules, you know that hundreds, maybe thousands of people have ridden that ride, gotten off and gone on with their lives, it's perfectly safe, but it still scares the crap out of you. 

So if you wonder why I speak in generalities, it is because I know I am on a path, I don't know where I am going.  I